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We live in a dream and, when our lives are over, we’ll finally wake up and realize the world is asleep. We’ll empty our lungs and strum out our heartstrings; we’ll simply wake up and realize the beauty in life.

I just had the most terrifying dream

It felt like I was sleep for hours, but it was only one.
It’s all fuzzy, but in my dream I remember being at a carnival or something. Then I walked through an ice cream store but it turned into a mansion.
In another part there was a guy, but I can’t put a face to him. I thought we had sex and I had cheated on my bf but in the end I couldn’t see see anything and had been date raped.
For some reason my ex in real life was the one that was pissed. My bf was no where to be found
At one point a part of the house I stumbled to seemed like a foster home and I saw a girl from my hometown and she yelled at me “if you want to be with him, then be with him”! Talking about my bd as if I had really cheated.

The last thing I remember is my ex called me all these names and left me helplessly stuck in snow up to my shoulders. I somehow made it to the concrete where the snow just for some reason ended. I collapsed from the drugs. The mansion family minus the guy were trying to help me, but I begged not to go to the hospital because I couldn’t afford it.

I then woke up in real life to a text from my boyfriend saying hed gotten a call from a mutual friend saying my ex was in my snapchat story getting dressed.

My ex and I ended up being neighbors this year and he asked to use our printer. I went over to get him and he was frustrated trying to tie a tie.

I feel like the snow in the dream really represents how I feel. Trapped with an ex that doesn’t care and a boyfriend nowhere in sight. I think if I hadn’t woken up I would have died looking for him (my boyfriend). I don’t know what this all means and I wish I could remember all of the dream but let’s just say I’m definitely drowning.

Seeing you freak out on me breaks my heart.

The fact that I haven’t heard from you makes me think you don’t care about my insecurities and how uncomfortable this all is for me. Have fun dealing with my bitchiness whenever it is you decide to talk to me.

(via seekingthesky)

I’ve already seen a previous long distance relationship of mine go south. We’re already separated by hundreds of miles, hours of driving. All I want is a simple text. I can’t be with you, but we’ve got technology to bring us closer, yet it doesn’t make a difference. I know you’re not a big texter and you’re busy, but just tell me that! I tell you everything as if you were standing right here with me. Yet I get a text from you saying sorry I’m in a job interview. Didn’t even know you finally decided to get one. Didn’t know you applied. Didn’t know you got an interview… We are already distant enough and you aren’t making things any easier. You have faith in my complicated emtions, yet my faith in this long distance relationship is always fucked up in some way or another for the most stupid shit.

Who would have thought that something as small as read receipts would make me remember just how much I despise long distance. It’s so hard going from spending almost every day with you to living in our separate worlds.

I just feel like she gets you lost in your head as much as I do tbhh

jamchee:

Aubrey Plaza by Father John Misty

(via octopustrickery)

Kinda really hate the fact that you’ve fucked all our mutual girl friends…but I guess that’s what you get making someone wait around for seven years.

"She said I don’t know if I’ve ever been good enough. I’m a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in. And I don’t know if I’ve ever been really loved by a hand that’s touched me, well I feel like something’s gonna give, and I’m a little bit angry. Well, this ain’t over, no not here, not while I still need you around. You don’t owe me, we might change. Yeah we just might feel good. " (at stuck in my head)

(via hells-mermaid)

I’m feeling extremely lonely today. My roommate is napping and I’m trying to do homework, but I can’t concentrate. I keep seeing all these people go in and out next door at my ex’s. It’s sad how many friends you make just because you’re associated to someone, (like my ex before he was my ex) but as soon as that association is broke so are all the rest of the relationships you had with those “friends”. I met a lot of older people last year through him and it seems like they’re all always off doing their own thing with their own age group or whatever. I’m really hoping that the new job I got will bring me closer together with some people who will help me drown out my past and loneliness because it sucks just being the girl next door when I used to be so much more. Not that I need or want to be special, but I thought we’d all be cool after all the things he said. I guess they were all just empty words.. I’m always talking about how much I love btown, but to be honest there are countless days where things are very overwhelming and there’s nothing I want more than to be back home where I was a part of something meaningful. I like writing out my feelings, but this is making me even more sad and I want to cry..

Until next time I feel like shit.

Anonymous asked: Do you think you'll ever get back together with Tim?

No. One, he’s moved on and fallen for another girl. Two, I m also with someone that makes me happy. Three, our breakup wouldn’t have happened if it wasn’t meant to. I know if we got back together I’d probably get tired of the same old things. Wonder if you’re go I think you are hmMmmMm

Title: Diet Mtn Dew (Uncensored Demo) Artist: Lana Del Rey 418,637 plays

littlemermaidtears:

littlemermaidtears:

littlealleybug:

sexrova:

The uncensored version of Diet Mtn Dew (in my opinion the best version of this song).

(…) Hit me my darling tonight
I don’t know why but I like it
Gotta get back to the wild
Give it up give it up
Live it up live it up (…)

(…) Hurt me and tell me you’re mine
I don’t know why but I like it
Scare me my God you’re divine
Gimme them gimme them
Dope and diamonds (…)

this is the fucking best thing I’ve ever heard I’m crying

THIS NEVER STOPS BEING GOOD

I’m just gonna start reblogging this once a day because it’s that worthy.

(via seekingthesky)

(via seekingthesky)

 
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